Incapable

Left adrift.

Aimless.

Almost dead inside.

Why do I even keep trying?

I detest myself.

Extra-ordinary girl

Nobody likes you,
Everyone left you,
They're all out without you... Having fun.

Percepciones

Tu mundo es tu construcción, y como un traje a medida, lo va hilvanando la vida de acuerdo a tu percepción.

“¿Que la vida es un fangal…?”: ¡pues estás en lo correcto!, que al ojo que ve defectos, ¡todo le parece mal!.

“¿Que la vida es un edén…?”: ¡también estás en lo cierto!, que al ojo que encuentra aciertos, ¡todo le parece bien!.

Y al fundamento, en esencia, lo sabe tu corazón: adonde va tu atención, ¡allí se halla tu experiencia!

Porque siempre la energía va detrás del pensamiento, y según sople ese viento, es tu empuje o tu apatía.

Pero también se te ha dado el don de remodelar tu cerebro y reinventar las redes de “tu cableado”.

Y de una forma real, reemplazar esos circuitos ya gastados y marchitos de tu mapa neuronal.

Y en vez de soñar despierto sueños de miedo y carencia, puedes soñar a conciencia que hay un vergel en tu huerto…

Y la fórmula se halla en ver aquello anhelado como estando realizado, allí, en tu propia pantalla.

¿Qué proyectas tú en tu mente en forma meticulosa…? ¿Una película hermosa, o una cinta deprimente…?

¿“Mis ángeles me acompañan” o… “¡estoy sola y confundida…!”? ¿“me siento amada y querida…” o… “¡todos en mí se ensañan…!” ?

¿“Sin dinero no soy nada…” o… “¡soy grande aún sin dinero…!”? ¿“tengo la suerte que quiero…” o “¡mi suerte ya está echada…!” ?

¡Es la visión repetida una, y otra, y otra vez, del derecho y del revés, la que modela tu Vida…!

Y así tu imaginería va cincelando al final, tu realidad perceptible de dolor o de alegría…

¡Es por eso, amigo mío, que eres la causa y razón de que esté tu corazón, iluminado, o sombrío!

¡Porque eres el Soñador que da vida a lo soñado!: un triste sueño apagado ¡o un bello sueño de Amor!

- Jorge Oyhanarte

C'mon

Siempre dudo si al final mi vida es sólo una espiral que se empieza a terminar cuando acaba de empezar 

Y me cuesta confesar que he renunciado a renunciar y si cabe una vez más aún me debo preguntar por qué a mí me cuesta tanto decirle que no al placer, pensar como todo el mundo y saber cuándo volver

Sueño que estoy perdida, acabada y confundida, soy lo peor, y siento que al final me he convertido en lo que yo no he querido

Y aunque es duro de aceptar ya no me pienso resignar.

Sé que tengo que luchar y no volverme a preguntar

The world spins madly on

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
and let the world spin madly on

The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

 The world spins madly on.

John Lennin

"When you're drowning, you don't say, 'I would be incredibly pleased if someone would have the foresight to notice me drowning and come and help me.' You just scream."

German stuff

1. tollpatschig (adj.) - clumsy

Patsch means something along the lines of “splat”; the sound a viscous liquid makes on impact. And toll means “great” or “terrific”.

2. das Kopfkino (noun) - the head cinema

Those rolling pictures in your head that predict with such unfounded certainty the most unfortunate outcomes of a meaningful situation or event.

3. die Naschkatze (noun) - the gnash cat

4. der Ohrwurm (noun) - the ear worm

It’s that catchy tune, that you simply can’t get out of your head.

5. die Schnapsidee (noun) - the schnapps idea

A schnapps idea - a nutty, crazy, crackpot idea - that could have been, and perhaps was, fuelled by an influential quantity of strong alcohol.

6. dickköpfig (adj.) - thick-headed

7. die Ahnungslosigkeit (noun) - cluelessness

"Aller Anfang ist schwer." (Every beginning is hard.)

 "Kein Bier vor vier." (No beer before four.)

"Alles hat ein Ende, nur die Wurst hat zwei." (Everything has an end, only the sausage has two.)

"Der Fisch stinkt vom Kopf her." (The fish starts stinking from the head.) Problems begin, and in fact only exist, in your head.

"Nicht jede Kuh lässt sich melken." (Not every cow lets you milk it.) This one is about resistance, resilience and establishing boundaries. 

"Erst kommt das Fressen, dann die Moral." (First comes the food, then the moral.)

"Ein gutes Gewissen ist ein sanftes Ruhekissen." (A clear conscience is a soft pillow.)

“Knapp daneben ist auch vorbei." (Coming close is also missing it.)

"Das Leben ist kein Ponyhof." (Life is not a pony farm.)

I'm in love with Seitan

“At times, Satan is the singer of a lurid song you hear on the radio.”

- Père Henri reading his first sermon,
written by Comte de Reynaud, Chocolat (2000)

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Gravity Falls

- Quick question: what happened to Dipper's spaghetti plate?

- I ate it, because I have little to no concern for other people's possesions or emotions.

- Mabel & Grunkle Stan, Gravity Falls s01e14

Alice Cooper's Alcohol Cookbook (adapted to metric system)

ALICE COOPER

Piña colada à la Cooper (for six)

• 140 ml dark (Bacardi 151) rum
• 1/12 fresh pineapple, chipped into sections
• 200 ml fresh coconut milk

Pour the rum into a bowl. Soak the pineapple into the rum.  Pour into blender, adding 25 more ml rum. Add coconut milk, then 25 ml fresh pineapple juice and one tray ice. Blend until you freeze it. Garnish with pineapple wedge and cherry.

Velvet Hammer

• 30 ml gin
• 30 ml apricot brandy
• 30 ml dry vermouth
• 1 dash Maraschino liqueur
• 1 dash orange bitters

Stir with ice. Strain into standard cocktail glass.

Royal Setup (for preconcert)

• 60 ml Crown Royal Whiskey
• 230 ml coke
• 1 ice cube

Drink until you feel prepared to face 20,000 screaming teenage maniacs.

Lizard Skin

Hollow out half a large orange. Pour in one large jigger of brandy, flame brandy, extinguish after a moment. Drink.

Tunafish Malted (for hangovers)

• 1 can tunafish
• 2 scoops pistachio ice cream
• 120 g cream

Blend. Drink. Go Back to Bed.

MICHAEL BRUCE

Night of the Living Dead

• 2/3 jigger 90 proof rum
• 1 1/3 jiggers 86 proof Gold Seal rum
• 2/3 jigger 86 proof White Label rum
• 2/3 jigger pineapple juice
• 2/3 jigger papaya juice
• juice of 1 lime
• 1 teaspoon powdered sugar

Shake well with ice and pour into a tall glass.
Decorate with pineapple and cherry and float on top Demerara Rum, 151 proof. Sprinkle with powdered sugar and attack.

H-Bomb

• 1/4 yellow chartreuse
• 1/4 green chartreuse
• 1/4 brandy
• 1/4 bourbon whiskey

Shake well with ice and strain into glass. Beware of alcoholic fallout.

Mai Tai Massacre

• 30 ml light Puerto Rico rum
• 30 ml light Jamaica rum
• 15 ml orange curacao
• 7,5 ml Orgeat syrup
• dash of juice of whole lime

Mix and pour. Leave no trace of the struggle.

Alice Cooper Ass-Kick

• 1/2 lime
• 1 1/2 jiggers vodka
• ginger beer

Squeeze 1/2 lime into a 350 ml glass and drop in the rind.
Add ice cubes and 1 1/2 jiggers vodka, and fill with ginger beer.
Stir and serve.

Certified Gold

• juice of 1/2 lemon
• 1 jigger raspberry syrup
• 1 jigger brandy
• champagne

Combine in tumbler the juice of 1/2 lemon, 1 jigger raspberry syrup and 1 jigger brandy. 
Fill with chilled champagne and celebrate.

DENNIS DUNAWAY

Dunaway’s Devil

• 2/3 jigger brandy
• 1/3 jigger green Creme de Menthe
• 1 pinch red pepper

Shake brandy and creme de menthe. Strain into glass. Sprinkle red pepper on top.

Kiss of Death

• 1/3 rye whiskey
• 1/3 dry vermouth
• 1/6 Dubonnet
• 1/6 orange juice
• 1 slice orange

Stir well with ice and strain into glass.

Gold Cadillac

• 22 ml white Crême de Cacao
• 30 ml 100 proof vodka
• 22 ml cointreau
• 60 ml fresh orange juice
• 22 ml Galliano liqueur
• 90-120 ml ice cream
• handful of ice

Blend until smooth.

Alexander the Great

• 30 ml brandy
• 30 ml dark Crême de Cacao
• 90-120 ml cream

Blend it. Serve with powdered nutmeg on top.

NEAL SMITH

Greenwich Mansion Dip

• 1/2 apple brandy
• 1/2 white creme de menthe
• 3 dashes Pernod

Shake well with ice, and strain into glass.

Billion Dollar Baby

• 45 ml whiskey
• 15 ml curaçao
• 1 dash grenadine
• 1 white of egg

Shake with ice as though all five Coopers had turned all the way up and were playing right between your ears. Strain into cocktail glass.

Crême de banana

• 1 chilled shot glass

Drink by the shot until you get there.

Evil Eye

• 2/3 Pernod anisette
• 1/3 peppermint

Shake well with ice and strain into glass.

Stinging Whip

• 1/2 brandy
• 1/4 sweet vermouth
• 1/4 dry vermouth
• 3 dashes curacao
• 1 dash Pernod

Mix and sip.

GLEN BUXTON

Buxton’s Bomber

• 1 jigger cognac
• 1/3 jigger Cointreau
• 1/3 jigger anisette
• 2/3 jigger vodka

Shake well with ice and strain into large glass. Drink. Repeat indefinitely.

Black Plague

• 1 wineglass rum
• 1 tablespoon molasses

Stir vigorously in glass. Fill with hot water. Stir and serve with nutmeg on top.

Ten-Ton Terror

• 60 ml whiskey
• 30 ml French vermouth
• 30 ml grapefruit juice

Shake well with ice and serve with bulbous cherry.

Baby’s Blood

• 30 ml lime juice
• 120 ml Jamaica rum
• 2 dashes Angostura bitters

Shake with finely cracked ice.