Shots of life

"Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up, but a comedy in long-shot."

"La vida es una tragedia en primer plano, pero una comedia en plano general"

― Sir Charles Spencer Chaplin
(a.k.a Charlie Chaplin, Charlot or The Tramp)

Hammerblow

Venga, que aún queda algo de mí en pie.

Checked umbrella

Tonight, the city around us felt like scenes from a film, one after another. The only thing that was left for us to do was wading into a fountain, because from the meeting point (the only classic cinema left in the centre) till the very goodbye kiss, it seemed like cloud nine again.

I recall the film stills: the intermittent pre-summer rain, the grey light that bathed the walls of the buildings, the silvery façade of the cathedral from below while we watched the silhouettes of drops fall through a lamp, all clashing with your cartoon-drawn smile and that half-broken checked umbrella that suited you perfectly. Like a classic comedic drama from the 60's. Nice dinner, too, but it's not the eel uramaki what I'll cherish the most, but the long, unexpected kiss-sprinkled walk home.

These moments... I hope I learn again how to enjoy them without the shadow hanging over me.

A quiet life, a handshake of carbon monoxide

Activated carbon

And so, it ends. All I've got left is the "constant vigilance" from my parents, fearing I will do it again.
I feel so numb, disappointed. I feel I can't go through this.

let down again

Transport, motorways and tramlines starting and then stopping,
taking off and landing, the emptiest of feelings
Disappointed people clinging on to bottles
And when it comes it's so so disappointing

Let down and hanging around
Crushed like a bug in the ground
Let down and hanging around
Shell smashed, juices flowing
Wings twitch, legs are going

Don't get sentimental, tt always ends up drivel

One day I'm going to grow wings
A chemical reaction, hysterical and useless

Let down and hanging around
Crushed like a bug in the ground
Let down and hanging around

Nuovo Cinema Paradiso

Hoy estaba viendo el episodio "Stealing First Base" (s21e15) de Los Simpson, y de pronto ha aparecido este fragmento lleno de referencias al cine y la televisión (con la banda sonora de Nuovo Cinema Paradiso de Ennio Morricone) que personalmente me ha encantado :)

Las películas y series homenajeadas son las siguientes:

• De aquí a la eternidad (From Here to Eternity, 1953)
• Lo que el viento se llevó (Gone with the Wind, 1939)
• El hombre tranquilo (The Quiet Man, 1952)
• La Dama y el Vagabundo (Lady and the Tramp, 1955)
• El Planeta de los simios (Planet of the Apes, 1968)
• En el estanque dorado (On Golden Pond, 1981)
• Ghost (1990)
• Spider-Man (2002)
• Star Trek (2009)
• La Bella y la Bestia (serie, Beauty and the Beast, 1987–1990)
• El enemigo público (The Public Enemy, 1931)
• WALL·E (2008)
• Alien 3 (1992)
• El Padrino, parte II (The Godfather: Part II, 1974)
• All in the Family, Episodio "Sammy's visit" (serie, 1971–1979)

A little less me

And so, it goes on and on. Seems lately I am only moving from one down to another, in a cyclic way.

In these low moments, I only think about the worst things that have ever happened to me, all at once. And I can feel all the things that torment me, all the things I lack, all the things I lost.

Shivers. Headache. Feeling tired of everything, and everyone's façade. The future does not tempt me anymore. It is becoming easier and easier to bring me down on my knees, and I feel I am running out of allies in this war called Life.

I am a little less me every time this happens, a little smaller. I am a little weaker.

Don't know for how long-