“I was never enough for you"

"You never loved me. You just loved how much I loved you.

I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING. You gave it all away".

- "Mother!" (Dir. Darren Aronofsky, 2017)

I'm better

"When you got the personality, you don't need the nudity."

- Mae West

Every now and then...

Once upon a time I was falling in love,
but now
I'm only

falling a
               p
                    a
                          r
                                t
                                     .

The agony of going through my music library

A. S.... He loved this band, and I introduced it to him.

B. I....  White Wedding... And I wanted to get married to him someday (you fool!).

B. R., the band we saw together at that festival (although he wouldn't remember it).

Listening to B. D.'s Hurricane at the Little Car while we were on our way to Pomegranate City.

Me playing that Brazilian band whose initials are C. S. S. whenever I pleased in the exact same place.


Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

Total depravity

There's total depravity staring back at me, standing right in front of me.

I try to look away and I fail.

I asked them "What went wrong?", and they said "It's been there all along".

I try to look away and I (miserably) fail.

As days go by

Hold you tight, keep you cool. Going mad, you don't know what to do

Do I need a friend? Well, I need one now

All you've done, you've done for you... All I gave, I gave for free

You gave nothing in return and there's little left of you

In red-eyed pain you're knocking on my door again, your crazy brain in tangles pleading for my gentle voice

Those storms keep pounding through your head and heart. You pray I'll soothe your sorry soul

All the days of your life... All the days you owe me

Here's to the fools who dream

Por todo aquello que pudo ser.

Pero no será.

You were born broken

Hollyhock: I know... I mean, I know, but I don't always know... You know? Like, sometimes I have this tiny voice in the back of my head that goes, like, 'Hey! Everyone hates you! And they're not wrong to feel that way!'.

BoJack: I know what you mean...

Hollyhock: Dad... That voice, the one that tells you you’re worthless and stupid and ugly? It goes away, right? It's just like some dumb teenage girl thing, then it goes away?

BoJack: Yeah...

- BoJack Horseman, s04e06

Beatrice: Well, you come by it honestly, the ugliness inside you. You were born broken, that's your birthright. And now you can fill your life with projects your books and your movies and your little girlfriends but it won't make you whole. You're BoJack Horseman. There's no cure for that.

- BoJack Horseman, s02e01

Twinkle, twinkle

"J'aime les gens qui, pour briller, n'éteignent pas les autres".

Waterboys

How long will I love you?
As long as there are stars above you...
And longer if I can